master of disguise

It's not always easy to speak your mind, sometimes you need to be forced to do it. Sometimes, it's better to just keep things to yourself, play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So you shut your mouth, keep your secret, and find other ways to keep yourself happy.

As babies, we were easy. One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired. It's only as adults that we become difficult. They start to hire feelings, put up walls. It gets to the point where we don't really know what anyone thinks or feels. Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.

the biggest day of your life

You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until its happening. You don’t recognize the biggest day of your life. Not until you’re right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone… The day you get your heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there’s not enough time… because you want to live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days.

fantasies

The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.

Leggings

modeled leggings/jeggings today for work =D

go buy them!

Surgery

The goal of any surgery is total recovery - to come out better than you were before. Some patients heal quickly and feel immediate relief. For others the healing happens gradually, and it's not until months or even years later that you realize you don't hurt anymore. So the challenge after any surgery is to be patient. But if you can make it through the first weeks and months, if you believe that healing is possible, then you can get your life back. But that's a big if.


The first 24 hours after surgery are critical. Every breath you take, every fluid you make, is meticulously reported and analyzed. Celebrated or mourned. But what about the next 24 hours? What happens with that first day turns to two and weeks turn into months? What happens when the immediate danger has passed, when the machines are disconnected and the teams of doctors and nurses are gone? Surgery is when you get saved, but post-op, after surgery, is when you heal. But, what if you don't?

REPEAT-anger

In life we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones... gluttony, pride, lust. But the thing you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger is not that dangerous, that you can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all, when it comes to destructive behavior, it did make the top seven.


So what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really, you give into a sin like envy or pride and you only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and you'll only hurt yourself and one or two others. But anger, anger is the worst... the mother of all sins... Not only can anger drive you over the edge, when it does you can take an awful lot of people with you.

what is it about men

There are distinct differences, between male and female brains. Female brains have a larger hippocampus...which usually makes them better at retention and memory. Male brains have a bigger parietal cortex, which helps when fending off an attack.Male brains confront challenges differently than female brains.Women are hardwired to communicate with language, detail, empathy. Men, not so much. It doesn't mean they're any less capable of emotion. They can talk about their feelings. It's just that, most of the time, they would really rather not.

sweet. sentimental.romantic

Some nights i feel like a million little pieces. And then it's the flickering of a candle flame, the slight cold wind whispering beneath the crack of the window, the shadows painting brush strokes in the mirror...

Nude trimmed nails trace a familiar tattoo. I could never understand you, hating music to hold hands to. Sometimes I want just that. Tainted words: sweet. sentimental. romantic.

praying for a rescue

Anyone can end up a victim. Injured by the actions of others. But whether the damage is inflicted by a cunning ex-wife, or a blow delivered by the object of our affection, the time comes when we must pick ourselves up and continue on our journey. And if we can't, then all we can pray for is a rescue.

fuck what others think

Expect the best, be prepared for the worst, fuck what others think and do your own thing

We only need one thing

Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. Family, love, sex. But we only need one thing. To actually be alive. We need a beating heart. When our heart is threatened...we respond in one of 2 ways. We either run..or.....we attack. There's a scientific term for this: fight or flight. It's instinct...we can't control it...

Or can we?

Passion

Passion. It's a force so potent we still remember it long after it's faded away. A drive so alluring it can push us into the arms of unexpected lovers. A sensation so overwhelming, it can knock down walls we've built to protect our hearts. A feeling so intense, it resurfaces even though we tried so hard to keep it buried. Yes, of all emotions, passion is the one that gives us a reason to live, and an excuse to commit all sorts of crimes