12.24.2012
how to walk away
Think of quitting as an investment in your future, happier self...the
you who is free of the frustrating job. There's a good chance that
someone will be unhappy with your decision, so get comfortable with
being uncomfortable..for a while anyway. The reality is that in walking
away we may have to sit with a range of unpleasant feelings, including
anxiety and guilt. SO when you make an important decision like leaving,
take the time to think it through, then be prepared for the difficult
emotions that invariably come with change.
11.28.2012
love isn't Practical
It isn't meant to be easy. It doesn't appear on command. It doesn't let you fall for whomever you'd like. It surfaces neither at the most opportune moment nor in the most convenient. It'll pair you with someone you might never have expected. It'll put you face to face with endless obstacles. But in the end, none of that will matter because it's how you overcome its obstacles that will define your love. It may not be practical, but love is ultimately the best thing that will ever happen to you.
11.19.2012
i am worth loving
I'm quirky, silly, blunt, and broken. My days are sometimes too dark, and my nights are sometimes too long. I often trip over my own insecurities. I require attention, long for passion, and wish to be desired. I use music to speak when words fail me, even though words are as important to me as the air I breathe. I love hard and with all that i have...and even with my faults, I am worth loving.
11.08.2012
...
i am a strong person but every now and then i need someone to take my hand and say everything will be alright
10.24.2012
great expectations
We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed
when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes our expectations sell us
short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the
unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because
the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The
expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.
first do no harm, easier said than done
First do no harm, easier said than done. We can take all the oaths in
the world, but the fact is, most of us do harm all the time. Sometimes
even when we're trying to help, we do more harm than good. And then the
guilt rears its ugly head. What you do with that guilt is up to you.
We're left with a choice. Either let the guilt throw you back into the
behavior that got you into trouble in the first place, or learn from the
guilt and do your best to move on.
9.30.2012
we like to think we're fearless
We like to think we're fearless, eager to explore unknown lands and soak
up new experiences, but the fact is, we're always terrified. Maybe the
terror is part of the attraction. Some people go to horror movies. We
cut things open. Dive into dark water. And at the end of the day, isn't
that what you'd rather to hear about? If you've got one drink and one
friend and 45 minutes. Slow rides make for boring stories. A little
calamity. Now that's worth talking about.
9.24.2012
but you are the exception
Maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts. And we've got to find other ways to make it alone or keep a straight face and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance and up until now i swored to myself that i'm content with loneliness, because non of it was ever worth the risk.
But you are the only exception.
But you are the only exception.
9.06.2012
this magic moment.
Have you ever had the starring role on a play? The solo in a recital?
All eyes on you, waiting for you to do what they came to see. Feeling
the incredible pressure to perform.
Score of people get ready for the show. The sets are arranged, there are
costumes, masks, props, everything has to be rehearsed, choreographed,
all leading to the moment when the curtain goes up. You know what they
say about the Carnegie Hall, there's only one way to get there...
If only life was just a dress rehearsal and we had time to do-overs. We'd be able to practice and practice every moment until we got it right. Unfortunately everyday of our lives is its own performace. It seems like even when we get the chance to rehearse, and prepare, and practice... We've still not quite ready for life's grand moments.
If only life was just a dress rehearsal and we had time to do-overs. We'd be able to practice and practice every moment until we got it right. Unfortunately everyday of our lives is its own performace. It seems like even when we get the chance to rehearse, and prepare, and practice... We've still not quite ready for life's grand moments.
8.22.2012
really freakin cold
We all want to grow up. We're desperate to get there, to grab all the
opportunities we can... to live. We're so busy trying to get out of that
nest... We don't think about the fact that it's going to be cold out
there... really freakin' cold. Because growing up sometimes means
leaving people behind. And by the time we stand on our own two feet...
we're standing there alone.
8.14.2012
8.07.2012
it feels so good when I stop
Of course, it's not just the job that keeps us up all night. I mean, if life's so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What's up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know, maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
8.02.2012
7.19.2012
hardcore
Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being
hardcore isn't just about being tough ... it's about acceptance. Sometimes
you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You
don't have to be tough every minute of every day. It's okay to let down
your guard. In fact, there are moments when it's the best thing you can
possibly do ... as long as you choose your moments wisely.
7.17.2012
begin BEGIN
Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not on
the calendar, it’s not a birthday, it’s not a new year, it’s an event
—big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a
new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits,
old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can
have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the
crap are a few things really worth holding on to.
7.04.2012
How annoying is carpe diem?
How annoying is carpe diem? How are you supposed to plan a life? A
career? A family? If you're always "carpe"-ing the "diem"? We'd all be too busy living in the now, whatever
that means. I'll admit the Romans had a point. You gotta to live life. And living
means that every morning when you wake up you have to chose between
seizing what life offers in the moment and forging ahead, no matter the
weather or closing the curtains and shutting out the day.
6.20.2012
the bigger picture
We may not like it but it really is important to stop every once in a
while, get out of your own head and see the bigger picture. Actually
find out that you were looking things all wrong can be sort of
liberating. And suddenly you see new potential, new possibilities we've
never seen it before and that's all fine when a hopeless situation
suddenly looks good. Unfortunately sometimes it goes the other way.
6.12.2012
if he's not calling you
If he’s not calling you, it’s because you are not on his mind. If he
creates expectations for you, and then doesn’t follow through on little
things, he will do same for big things. Be aware of this and realize
that he’s okay with disappointing you. Don’t be with someone who doesn’t
do what they say they’re going to do. If he’s choosing not to make a
simple effort that would put you at ease and bring harmony to a
recurring fight, then he doesn’t respect your feelings and needs. “Busy”
is another word for “asshole.” “Asshole” is another word for the guy
you’re dating. You deserve a fucking phone call.
6.11.2012
the dream has become a nightmare
At some point maybe we accept the dream has become a nightmare. We tell
ourselves that reality is better. We convince ourselves it's better that
we never dream at all. But, the strongest of us, the most determined of
us, holds on to the dream or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream
we never considered. We wake to find ourselves, against all odds,
feeling hopeful. And, if we're lucky, we realize in the face of
everything, in the face of life the true dream is being able to dream at
all.
6.06.2012
i want more
i'm telling you here and now. You need to be aggressive and persistent.
Why? Because I want more.
Why? Because I want more.
6.04.2012
That’s the crazy part. It’s worth anything.
They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of a mountain.
They’re smiling, ecstatic, triumphant. They don’t take pictures along
the way cuz who wants to remember the rest of it. We push ourselves
because we have to, not because we like it. The relentless climb, the
pain and anguish of taking it to the next level. Nobody takes pictures
of that. Nobody wants to remember. We just wanna remember the view from
the top. The breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That’s what
keeps us climbing. And it’s worth the pain. That’s the crazy part. It’s
worth anything.
5.30.2012
happy accidents
No matter how many plans we make or steps we follow, we never know how
our day is going to end up. We’d prefer to know, of course, what
curveballs will be thrown our way. It’s the accidents that always turn
out to be the most interesting parts of our day, the people we never
expected to show up, a turn of events we never would have chose for
ourselves. All of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never
expected to be and its nice, or it takes some getting used to. Still,
maybe you’ll find yourself appreciating it somewhere down the line. So
you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow, going over your
plans, preparing for them, and hoping that whatever accidents come your
way will be happy ones.
5.14.2012
that knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping
The early bird catches the worm, a stitch in time saves nine. He who
hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all
heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents
warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to ‘seize
the day'. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make
our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep
today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until
we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That
knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping.
And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable
mistake beats the hell out of never trying.
Here is my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy
Intimacy is a four syllable word for "Here is my heart and soul, please
grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared.
Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also
comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates.
There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't
want to know.
I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.
I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.
5.10.2012
the universe is funny that way
Germs, disease, toxins, our bodies encounter dangers all the time, just
beneath the surface, hidden. Whether you realize it or not, your body is
constantly protecting itself. Every time you blink your eye, you wash
away thousands of unwanted microbes. Too much pollen and you sneeze. The
body knows when it's encountered something that doesn't belong. The
body detects the invader, it releases its white blood cells, and it
attacks.
Just when we think we've figured things out, the universe throws us a curve ball. So we have to improvise, we find happiness in unexpected places, we find our way back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way, sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.
Just when we think we've figured things out, the universe throws us a curve ball. So we have to improvise, we find happiness in unexpected places, we find our way back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way, sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.
5.06.2012
drink it in, cuz this is it.
Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You
changed my life." Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward
it, but every now and then, look around. Drink it in cuz this is it.
It might all be gone tomorrow.
5.04.2012
I mean seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex
Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd
get a bike for your birthday or if you'd get to eat cookies for
breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean seriously, don't be
fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents
anywhere telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility.
Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have
to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. The scariest part about responsibility?
When you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers.
Responsibility. It really does suck. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away. It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. And still adulthood has it perks. I mean the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. That's, pretty damn good.
Responsibility. It really does suck. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away. It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. And still adulthood has it perks. I mean the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. That's, pretty damn good.
5.01.2012
romeo and juliet
Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while,
and then their time passed. If they could have known that beforehand,
maybe it all would have been okay. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was
grown up, I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag
me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of
passion with someone, and that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even
now, I believe that for the most part, love is about choices. It's about
putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy
ending...most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best
choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway.
Repeat
Psychologists believe that every aspect of our lives, all our thought processes & behavior patterns, are the direct result of our relationship to our parents. That every relationship that we have is really just another version of that first relationship. It's just us trying over & over again to get it right.
It's the most important job in the world. You probably should need a license to do it, but then most of us wouldn't even pass the written exam. Some people are naturals. They were born to do it. Some have other gifts. But the good news is biology dictates you don't have to do it alone. You can waste your whole life wondering, but the only way to find out what kind of parent you'd be is to finally stop talking about it and just do it.
4.23.2012
Born again
Every cell in the human body regenerates on average every seven years.
Like snakes, in our own way we shed our skin. Biologically we are brand
new people. We may look the same, we probably do, the change isn't
visible at least in most of us, but we are all changed completely
forever.
When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientists crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.
When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientists crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.
4.19.2012
you are right
You can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted
advisors. But in the end, the decision is always yours and yours alone.
And when it's time to act and you're all alone with your back against
the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. The one
telling you what you already knew. The one that's almost always right.
dont tell anybody
I was swimming. I was fighting. Then I thought, just for a second, I
thought ‘What’s the point?’ And then I let go. I stopped fighting. Don’t
tell anybody
4.15.2012
i had a terrible day
I had a terrible day, we say it all the time. A fight with the
boss, the stomach flu, traffic. That's what we describe as terrible,
when nothing terrible is happening.
These are the things we beg for, a root canal, an IRS audit, coffee
spilled on our clothes. When the really terrible things happen, we start
begging to god to bring back the little horrors and take away this.It
seems quaint now, doesn't it. The flood in the kitchen, the poison oak,
the fight that leaves you shaking with rage. Would it have helped, if we
could see what else was coming. Would we have known that those were the
best moments of our lives.
4.06.2012
repeat-do you remember your first LOVE?
Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the
only person who will ever receive all of you. After that, you learn
better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains
left behind in the heart of the one you loved, a piece no future lover
could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the believe
that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trial
and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the
stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought
love would be, everything that was proven wrong.
4.04.2012
sometimes i'm terrified
sometimes im terrified of my heart, of its constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. The way it stops and starts.
repeat- can anyone be friends after ...
"can we still be friends?" Can anyone ever truly be friends again after a
break up? You give a person your everything. In turn, they learn
everything about you, every insignificant fact. But suddenly they
disappear. They aren't yours anymore and you are somehow supposed to
talk to them. There will be awkward pauses where the "i love you" used
to go and the colorful conversations will become dull and pianful. And
even if years pass, you still won't talk normally because talking ot
them at all will remind you why you fell in love with them in the first
place.
3.27.2012
master of disguise
It's not always easy to speak your mind, sometimes you need to be forced to do it. Sometimes, it's better to just keep things to yourself, play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So you shut your mouth, keep your secret, and find other ways to keep yourself happy.
As babies, we were easy. One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired. It's only as adults that we become difficult. They start to hire feelings, put up walls. It gets to the point where we don't really know what anyone thinks or feels. Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.
As babies, we were easy. One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired. It's only as adults that we become difficult. They start to hire feelings, put up walls. It gets to the point where we don't really know what anyone thinks or feels. Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.
3.25.2012
the biggest day of your life
You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until its happening. You don’t recognize the biggest day of your life. Not until you’re right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone… The day you get your heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there’s not enough time… because you want to live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days.
fantasies
The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.
3.23.2012
3.20.2012
Surgery
The goal of any surgery is total recovery - to come out better than you were before. Some patients heal quickly and feel immediate relief. For others the healing happens gradually, and it's not until months or even years later that you realize you don't hurt anymore. So the challenge after any surgery is to be patient. But if you can make it through the first weeks and months, if you believe that healing is possible, then you can get your life back. But that's a big if.
The first 24 hours after surgery are critical. Every breath you take, every fluid you make, is meticulously reported and analyzed. Celebrated or mourned. But what about the next 24 hours? What happens with that first day turns to two and weeks turn into months? What happens when the immediate danger has passed, when the machines are disconnected and the teams of doctors and nurses are gone? Surgery is when you get saved, but post-op, after surgery, is when you heal. But, what if you don't?
The first 24 hours after surgery are critical. Every breath you take, every fluid you make, is meticulously reported and analyzed. Celebrated or mourned. But what about the next 24 hours? What happens with that first day turns to two and weeks turn into months? What happens when the immediate danger has passed, when the machines are disconnected and the teams of doctors and nurses are gone? Surgery is when you get saved, but post-op, after surgery, is when you heal. But, what if you don't?
3.18.2012
REPEAT-anger
In life we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones... gluttony, pride, lust. But the thing you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger is not that dangerous, that you can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all, when it comes to destructive behavior, it did make the top seven.
So what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really, you give into a sin like envy or pride and you only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and you'll only hurt yourself and one or two others. But anger, anger is the worst... the mother of all sins... Not only can anger drive you over the edge, when it does you can take an awful lot of people with you.
3.15.2012
what is it about men
There are distinct differences, between male and female brains. Female brains have a larger hippocampus...which usually makes them better at retention and memory. Male brains have a bigger parietal cortex, which helps when fending off an attack.Male brains confront challenges differently than female brains.Women are hardwired to communicate with language, detail, empathy. Men, not so much. It doesn't mean they're any less capable of emotion. They can talk about their feelings. It's just that, most of the time, they would really rather not.
3.13.2012
sweet. sentimental.romantic
Some nights i feel like a million little pieces. And then it's the flickering of a candle flame, the slight cold wind whispering beneath the crack of the window, the shadows painting brush strokes in the mirror...
Nude trimmed nails trace a familiar tattoo. I could never understand you, hating music to hold hands to. Sometimes I want just that. Tainted words: sweet. sentimental. romantic.
Nude trimmed nails trace a familiar tattoo. I could never understand you, hating music to hold hands to. Sometimes I want just that. Tainted words: sweet. sentimental. romantic.
praying for a rescue
Anyone can end up a victim. Injured by the actions of others. But whether the damage is inflicted by a cunning ex-wife, or a blow delivered by the object of our affection, the time comes when we must pick ourselves up and continue on our journey. And if we can't, then all we can pray for is a rescue.
3.10.2012
fuck what others think
Expect the best, be prepared for the worst, fuck what others think and do your own thing
3.08.2012
We only need one thing
Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. Family, love, sex. But we only need one thing. To actually be alive. We need a beating heart. When our heart is threatened...we respond in one of 2 ways. We either run..or.....we attack. There's a scientific term for this: fight or flight. It's instinct...we can't control it...
Or can we?
Or can we?
3.04.2012
Passion
Passion. It's a force so potent we still remember it long after it's faded away. A drive so alluring it can push us into the arms of unexpected lovers. A sensation so overwhelming, it can knock down walls we've built to protect our hearts. A feeling so intense, it resurfaces even though we tried so hard to keep it buried. Yes, of all emotions, passion is the one that gives us a reason to live, and an excuse to commit all sorts of crimes
2.25.2012
unlikely friendships
The world is filled with unlikely friendships. How do they begin? With one person desperately in need. And another willing to lend a helping hand. When such kindness is offered, we are finally able to see the worth of those we have previously written off. And before we know it, a bond has formed.Regardless of whether others can understand it. Yes, unlikely friendships start up everyday. No one understands this more then the lonely. In fact, it's what they count on.
The world is filled with unlikely friendships. Odd pairings that to the casual observer make absolutely no sense at all. But if you look closer, we can see why these alliances form. After all, a shared purpose can give even mortal enemies common ground.
The world is filled with unlikely friendships. Odd pairings that to the casual observer make absolutely no sense at all. But if you look closer, we can see why these alliances form. After all, a shared purpose can give even mortal enemies common ground.
2.24.2012
i'm holding on
I'm falling apart, i'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating. In the pain, is is there healing. In your name I find meaning so i'm holding on , i'm holding on...i'm holding on.... I"m barely holding on to you
show me you're willing to fight
Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?
Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone
So Father, give me the strength to be everything i'm called to be
2.22.2012
marriage...Do you have what it takes?
Even good marriages fail. One minute you're standing on solid ground, the next minute- you're not. And there're always two versions. Yours, and theirs. The both versions start the same way though. The both start with two people falling in love. You think yours is the one that's gonna make it. So it always comes as a shock. The moment you realize it's over. One minute you're standing on solid ground, the next minute, you're not.
Do you have what it takes? If your marriage is in trouble, can you weather the storm? When the ground gives way and your world collapses, maybe you just need to have faith. And trust that you can survive this together. Maybe you just need to hold on tight. And no matter what, don't let go.
Do you have what it takes? If your marriage is in trouble, can you weather the storm? When the ground gives way and your world collapses, maybe you just need to have faith. And trust that you can survive this together. Maybe you just need to hold on tight. And no matter what, don't let go.
change the rules, cheat a little
A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, pain and the play by play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games. We use them to pass the time to make life more interesting... to distract us from what's really going on. There are those of us who love to play games, any games. And there are those of us who love to play a little too much.
Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose, or draw, the game is on. So go ahead... argue with the ref, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast... play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Okay, so it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game... right?
Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose, or draw, the game is on. So go ahead... argue with the ref, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast... play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Okay, so it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game... right?
2.18.2012
Shhh i'm sleeping
"shhhh" she said, "i'm sleeping"
Just like that from a hundred miles an hour to asleep in a nanosecond. I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So i walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.
Just like that from a hundred miles an hour to asleep in a nanosecond. I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So i walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.
2.12.2012
Moments of dread
No matter who we are, we all experience moments of dread. When we ask ourselves: Will anyone believe I'm innocent? Will my daughter be a child of divorce? Will this man break my heart? Are there things that go bump in the night? And sometimes, the answer is yes.
No matter how secure we are, we all experience moments of dread. It may be just before we open our credit card bill or hand over a note to our teacher or step on the scale after a week away from the gym. Yes, we all experience moments of dread. And sometimes, we have no one to blame but ourselves.
2.09.2012
make believe
Everyone enjoys a game of make-believe now and then. Of course, the ways we can play can vary greatly. Some tell ourselves that work won't interfere with our family life Sometimes, we imagine relationships as more meaningful then they actually are. . Occasionally, we put on a show, as if to tell ourselves our secrets aren't really that terrible. Yes, the game of make-believe is a simple one. You start by lying to yourself, and if you get others to believe you, you win.
2.06.2012
sense of SEcurity
A sense of security, it's something we all search for whether it's knowing you're desired, taking control of our fears, or finding strength to do the right thing. But, the danger of a sense of security is that it may prove to be false.
Sometimes it's the little things that make us feel secure, like an old friend at bedtime, money saved for a rainy day, or matching coffee mugs. But, there are times when these small comforts are up against big challenges.
2.03.2012
1.29.2012
Prayer of the selfish Child
Now I lay me down to sleep
i pray the Lord my soul to keep
and if I die before I wake
I pray the Lord my toys to break.
So none of the other kids can use'em...
Amen.
1.26.2012
Competition
Competition, it means different things to different people. But whether it’s a friendly rivalry...or a fight to the death...the end result is the same. There will be winners...and there will be losers. Of course, the trick is to know which battles to fight. You see, no victory comes without a price.
coffee is my drug
i have become one of those people that need coffee in the morning to survive the day. It gives me energy, confidence, and positivity? Life sucks at the moment, but when there is a down, there is an up. Sooo, waiting for the UPPPPPP!
1.18.2012
Pants
Didn't have enough time to shoot with the model so I got the chance to model some pants/skirt. Best part was wearing heels! =D
1.17.2012
Lightning never strikes twice
They say lightning never strikes twice, but that's a myth. It doesn't happen often. Lightning usually gets it right the first time. When you're hit with 30 amps of electricity you feel it. It can make you forget who you are, can burn you, blind you, stop your heart and cause massive internal injuries. It can change your life forever.Lightning doesn’t often strike twice. It’s a once in a lifetime thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again. Eventually the pain will go away, the shock will wear off. And you start to heal yourself. To recover from something you never saw coming. But, sometimes the odds are in your favor. If you’re in just the right place at just the right time you can take a helluva hit. And still have a shot at surviving
1.12.2012
I do not care...
I do not care what car you drive, where you live. If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. If your clothes are this years cutting edge. If your trust fund is unlimited. If you are A-list Blist or never heard of list. I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. They are the only thing you truly own. The only thing i will remember you by. I will not fall in love with your bones and skin. I will not fall in love with the places you have been. I will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind.
1.07.2012
Birthday Wish
We all get at least one good wish in a year over the candles on our birthday. Some of us throw in more, on eyelashes, fountains, lucky stars. And every now and then, one of those wishes come true. So what then? Is it as good as we hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness or do we just notice we’ve got a long list of other wishes waiting to be wished. We don’t wish for the easy stuff. We wish for big things. Things that are ambitious, out of reach. We wish because we need help and we’re scared and we know we may be asking too much. We still wished though because sometimes they come true.
1.04.2012
1.02.2012
direct result of our relationship to our parents
Psychologists believe that every aspect of our lives, all our thought processes & behavior patterns, are the direct result of our relationship to our parents. That every relationship that we have is really just another version of that first relationship. It's just us trying over & over again to get it right. It's the most important job in the world. You probably should need a license to do it, but then most of us wouldn't even pass the written exam. Some people are naturals. They were born to do it. Some have other gifts. But the good news is biology dictates you don't have to do it alone. You can waste your whole life wondering, but the only way to find out what kind of parent you'd be is to finally stop talking about it and just do it.
1.01.2012
I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell.
I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell. I’ve never seen either, but I believe they exist. They have to exist because without a heaven, without a hell, we’re all just headed for limbo. Heaven, hell, limbo, no one really knows where we’re going or what’s waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say for sure, with absolute certainty, that’s there are moments that take us to another place, moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now, that’s all we need to know.
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