money v freedom

money is the cheapest thing, freedom is the most expensive

how much is too much?

When you were a kid, it was Halloween candy. You hid it from your parents and you ate it until you got sick. In college, it was the heavy combo of youth, tequila and well, you know. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing. How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask... And when is it all just too much to bear?

INTIMACY~

Intimacy is a four syllable word for "Here is my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.


I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.

see you in 2 years!

see you in 2 years!!

The worst type of crying

is when your lips start to shake and tears build up quickly and fall fast. You're bent over or crouched trying to suck it and not make any noise but it hurts too much to hold it in soy ou let out a yelp and a cry then comes the loss of breath which sucks because not only your'e crying out loud but you think you sound dumb for not breathing too.

 It's just a mess.

Can anyone be friends again after a break up?

"can we still be friends?" Can anyone ever truly be friends again after a break up? You give a person your everything. In turn, they learn everything about you, every insignificant fact. But suddenly they disappear. They aren't yours anymore and you are somehow supposed to talk to them. There will be awkward pauses where the "i love you" used to go and the colorful conversations will become dull and pianful. And even if years pass, you still won't talk normally because talking ot them at all will remind you why you fell in love with them in the first place.

your First love

Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you. After that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved, a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the believe that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong.

pick and choose

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

Good guys v. Bad guys

It's not always that easy to distinguish between the good guys and the bad guys. Sinners can surprise you and the same is true for saints. Why do we try to define people as simply good or simply evil? Because no one wants to admit that compassion and cruelty can exist side-by-side in one heart.  And that anyone is capable of anything. 


Good guys wear white hats and bad guys wear black. This is how children distinguish between good and evil. But they soon learn that bad guys always don't look so bad. And sometimes they seem downright friendly. That is until you get to know them a little bit better.

smile ,be cheerful, and put on a happy face

 It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. Your health can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.
Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy. Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were. Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.

Beginning

People are really romantic about the beginnings of things. Fresh start, clean slate, a world of possibility. But no matter what new adventure you're embarking on, you're still you. You bring you into every new beginning in your life. So how different can it possibly be?


It's all anybody wants, right? Clean slate, a new beginning. Like that's gonna be any easier. Ask the guy pushing the boulder up the hill. Nothing is easy about starting over. Nothing at all.

the 5 stages of vacation grief

"Photoshop"

Some Things

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves

late @ night

If I could just get a piece of that sky

What my alarm sounds like

$400.00

I threw away all my handbags because they are old, ripping apart, embarrassing to wear it out on public. Did not know it was that bad until I noticed my friend look at my bag and gave it a dirty look, then really encouraged me to throw it away and buy a new handbag/purse. As of now, I do not have a purse. I marched into a department store and found tons and tons and tons of beautiful handbags! Of course I find out that in order to have a nice, decent BEAUTIFUL looking purse, it will cost you AT LEAST $200. ANd then I saw it. It was...the most Beautiful thing i have ever seen. I was determined to buy it. Heck with money, I don't care! I WANT IT AND I NEED IT! I can use my credit card...pshhh..i'll pay it off.  So I look at the price...and of course it is almost $400. Plus tax over $400. So then I drop it and leave with my head down. I was so determined to buy it even if it was $200. Why is it that the one you want has to be the one you can never afford?? And since i'm not working, buying that purse would be incredibly stupid. But i was THIS CLOSE...THIS CLOSE to buying that purse.

No confrontation

Someone asked me once how I got to the spot where I actually took a photograph. I found that I followed noises, clouds, the winds, smells – but most of all it was the light that guided me. I don’t force myself on the environment, I let it manipulate me. There’s no confrontation with nature because I give in to it. I let myself be seduced completely

Looking Up

To be honest, there are days when I think i have chosen the wrong profession. But when I am surrounded by other aspiring photographers, I see hope.

Not a day goes by thinking what is in store for my future. Where will I be in 3 years? 5 years? 7 years?

I am the typemaster

stuff no one told me

Good fathers

The world is filled with good fathers. How do we recognize them? They are the ones who are missed so terribly, everything falls apart in their absence. They are the ones who love us, long before we even arrive.  They are the ones who come looking for us, when we can't find our way home. Yes, the world is filled with good fathers. And the best are the ones who make the women in their lives feel like good mothers.